How A Stranger’s Funeral Changed My Life

ImageLast week I grudgingly attended my first funeral. It was for a great aunt whom I have no recollection of ever meeting, nor had I ever met any of her family. I have never been good with others emotions, I despise crying myself and feel awkward around those who are.

 
As I stood on the outside of the group I began to ponder my own life, as such events often prompt one’s self to do , and I realized I was sick of this loop I was stuck in. I wasn’t even living I was simply existing. College seemed to have stamped out my spunky and energetic soul leaving me an empty uninspired skin.
 
I guess I’m lucky; I hit rock bottom when I was 20, but as I was circling the dregs looking for a way out I found myself in the same routine:

 
1.)Wake up Miserable
2.)Begrudgingly go to work
3.)Get so fed up by the end of the day that I decided I was ready for a change
4.)Get inspired looking up articles on how to change your life ect.
5.)Promise myself I would start tomorrow
 
Rinse and Repeat…
 
I dunno about you, but I see a fundamental flaw in this plan, instead of utilizing my positive head space I left all the hard work for my tired miserable brain the next morning. So inevitably I would always fail and end up in the exact same routine.
 
I did this in all areas of my life: exercise, healthy diet, art…
 
I was determined to make tomorrow a better day instead of focusing on the one I was having. That is why I have learned it is of the utmost importance to live in the present, to live everyday like it is your last because one day, it will be.

 

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2 thoughts on “How A Stranger’s Funeral Changed My Life

  1. Wilf Wenzel says:

    I think your blog is a great idea…
    in a way its mere existence will add that energy
    and desire for fulfillment that you envision for yourself.
    I really enjoy the drawing and hope that there will be many
    more as you take us through early adulthood and on…

    • Thanks Wilf! I can only hope that this blog will be a medium in which I can use to flourish and grow as a writer, artist and most importantly as a person.I look forward to your thoughtful insights on future posts!

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